One of my favourite things to do, epecially on coldish days like this, is to wake up early, spend about an hour or so doing things, then go back into a light doze to keep warm. I love it, it's glorious.
I'm still slightly panicking over the money, but I've come to accept that each day there will be something for me to frack out over and almost completely lose my head about. So, for now, it's money. Next week, it could be job hunting, again. And I know a bit after that it'll be my sister coming down to visit that'll be twisting my guts about.
Speaking of, I can't remember if Mother actually wants me to get a job or not. I seem to remember her saying that me being on Jobseekers/Benefits was actually better for her in the long run, but I can't remember if thats changed and I need to really start putting my back into it or what. I want to work. I really
want to work, you have no idea how much I want to. I'm really going nuts, I sit here, mostly by myself, all week doing nothing and frankly? Yeah, I'm going a little nuts. Lonliness
emoemoemo or something. I dunno.
And yeah, my sister is visiting from the 10th to the 13th of December. I... I really don't want to be around while she is, because I may end up beating the crap out of her. I'm sorry but, she ruined my life. She
ruined my life. Because of her, I had to quit my job (where I was earning double what I do now), go onto two kinds of benefits, move house, made Mother cry a hell of a lot... And she still expects us to bend over backwards for her? I don't buy it. I've never believed in the "They're family, so you have to love them" mentality. No, I fucking don't. She's never done anything for me, and now she's royally fucked my life, and Mothers life, up.
I really, really don't want to be here when she comes down. Ugh.
I almost forgot, in January I might be signing up to a nice little college course. Don't laugh, but I'v wanted to take floristry for a while now. I know I can make really pretty bunches of flowers, but they're probably not technically correct and I should really look into it. At this rate, it's pretty much any job I can get, and if that means I need to go to college for three months, then hell, I'll do it.
And for those of you that were mega-worried or something, I've promised someone that I really, really would try harder on the eating thing. I just feel full a lot quicker now so it's harder to finish a whole plate or whatever, but I am trying, I promise.I think I'm going to start work on my S.Korea cosplay in January too. Oh, and I will
very probably be going to the MCM May Expo too. I'm going to see if I can get Mother to buy me tickets for both days for my birthday or something. She always complains I never tell her what I actually want, and then when I do she buys me something totally different, it is a mystery~ February shouldn't be too late for tickets/rooms, right? I plan on getting a hotel room too, so if anyone wants to share, I'd be up for that.
It doesn't feel like 10am to me. That sounds weird, but it really doesn't. Mm.. I think I've run out of things to regurgitate onto the journal. Cheerio, and all that.
Edit: On my way home, I notice that the flower shop had the Polish and Latvian flags hanging up in his window. Excited, I poked my head in and asked why.
Him: You're not Latvian.
Me: Yeah, I know, but-
Him: No-one knows Latvia. Not even some Latvians know Latvia. How would you recognise the flag.
Me: *tear* 8'D Aaaaaah~
Him: I had someone come in and ask why the Austrian flag is up.
Me: *splorfle*
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
excited